An associate, actually someone who from time to time challenges my authority (as expected for anyone in my position), challenged me again today. And for the first time, I responded to a threat by telling the truth, not for sympathy, not as an excuse, not for control, but simply to offer an explanation. After doing it, I was stricken by how calm I was and all this energy from past times when I had kept quiet and lied about my condition, all this energy came through as tears. Tapped on her name, and all the incidents. Felt much better afterwards. [ further contents lost due to database corruption]