Steroids, Rage and Anger

People with chronic disease have daily struggles to go through even when all seems to be well and we are in relatively perfect health. There is the legacy of all those years previously as a cripple. Financial, family, friends, home, all these are affected and leave a legacy that still presents itself even after all should have been healed.Perhaps not just an EFT post in itself, also awareness-raising and a public apology for those poor recipients of an email reply-to-all that I did in response to a spammer.To cut a long story short, because of finances I found myself in a situation where I breathed in a great deal of oily soot. My flatmate, who is very nice, simply did not appreciate what I really meant when I said no, I can’t have incense-burning in the home. After all, I had initially said yes, not understanding myself why I should not expose myself to it. A week ago, he kept lighting one after the other with his door ajar while I was too busy working on the computer to notice, till it was too late. I got no sleep that night until I finally succumbed to the emergency supply of inhaler that I had kept just in case. Only that emergency supply had an insidious steroid compound added to it, and I can’t take steroids, only this really was life or death,so I had no choice. I had tapped on it, for the oil, the hot oil, the smell, the soot, the oil-coated soot, my distress, my worry, my panic, everything, and by 5 AM was still wide awake struggling to breathe and exhausted. So I took the steroid-laced inhaler and became a monster for the next week.

There is no describing the raw rage that rises within me on steroids.Totally illogical, and previous to EFT, totally uncontrollable.One morning I forgot to tap and got straight onto the computer and also simultaneously met my flatmate. My rage exploded onto both. Although nowhere near the rage it would have been and used to be before EFT, I still have the consequences to deal with. More legacy. I’m now tapping more until this medication leaves my body.

Setup and Reminder:”Even though I have this steroid horror and all its consequences in my body,I deeply accept myself, with all my embarrassing rage, I accept myself unconditionally, even though I’m ashamed, I forgive myself and promise to make enough money to get out of home-sharing forever, I am doing my best, I promise myself to keep making more money so that I can afford better medical care in emergencies should they occur in the future, even though I exploded, I remember that it was more controlled than before, I choose to continue trying to control this chemical rage, I choose to find new solutions to old problems”
Reminder:”This steroid”

The (only) good news is I found that if I tap regularly throughout the day, my anger is contained and I am clear-headed enough to avoid confrontational situations.

When you have a chronic physical condition, anything that either emotionally or physically has a negative impact on you can make the condition worse. EFT is one way of throwing away the emotional rubbish collecting in your system. In the same way that we dispose of our household rubbish regularly for home cleanliness and hygiene, I use EFT to dispose of negative emotions for my optimal physical health. — EFT with Me, Suzanne Zacharia, Practitioner —— Disclaimer – You are advised to consult with your medical practitioner before embarking on any course of alternative, complementary, or beauty therapy. Our use of systems that are trademarked or have a registered trademark represents our views and not necessarily those of the trademark owners.