End of a business relationship

The strange end to a business relationship added more stress at this difficult time, not easy financially when you have a chronic disease. I had seen itcoming and have made as much provision for it as I could, but the weird behaviour from my two ex business associates at thisclinic I shared with them really hit me. If only they were being logical or said to me something like “sorry, Suzanne, butthis is not right for us right now because…” then I would have just sadly said goodbye, kept in touch and remembered thetime with them as a pleasant experience. But the way they did it was driven by jealousy, fear, racism, sexism and homophobia.The worst thing is I am getting mental images of my regular clients’ faces, reminding me of the need to find somewhere localfor them in the next few days, in case they can’t have a home visit or go to to my W1 clinic in the meantime. I have a runnynose and slight fever. Luckily I managed to rearrange my appointments today and work from home (one advantage of beingself-employed). Tapping:SUDS at 8Setup:”Even though ….. is a …., I deeply and completely love and acceptmyself, Even though ….. is a scared little ….. …., I deeply and completely love and accept myself, Even though ….. isa …. with a tiny little ….. …., I deeply and completely love and accept myself”Reminder:”Scared little…..””Little …. ……””F…..ng …. ….”LOLOLOLOL :-DOn UA:”F…..ng …. ….”Onhead:”F…..ng …. ….””The little ….”Everywhere:”Little s..t”SUDS at 5Setup:”Even though I havethis jealous …… feeling, I deeply and completely and totally love and accept myself”[Repeated many times, it felt right,so I went with it]Tapping:”jealous pathetic little …… idiot” “jealous pathetic little-….ed …… idiot”…………… “jealous pathetic little sad man”….. “with a dirty toilet…..with cups and mugs in thetoilet….ugh……unprofessional little dirty thing”Oh who cares, I can’t spend any more time thinking about him, mymind’s a blank. I now just have an image of the other one in my mind, with a Homer Simpson expression on his face (sorry,Homer). Tapping:”This stupid [his name]” “This stupid [his name]” “This stupid [his name]” “This stupid [his name]” “Thisstupid [his name]”…. Tapped on related things about him I can’t publish because of libel…On head and UAsimultaneously:”F….ng …. ….”:-DOn UB:”Even though …..’s being a …. …., I’ve had some goodexperiences, I’ve learnt a lot, I choose to move on, I’ve had some good experiences, I’ve learnt a lot, I choose to move on,I’ve had some good experiences, I’ve learnt a lot, I choose to move on, I choose to move on, I choose to move on, I choose tomove on, I choose to move on”UB and UA simultaneously:” I choose to move on, I choose to move on, I choose to move on,I choose to move on, I choose to move on, I choose to move on, I choose to move on, I choose to move on, there’s a newbeginning waiting just for me, there’s a new beginning waiting for me, I can’t wait till I’m better tomorrow and can enjoystriking new deals, enjoy my new options, embrace a new challenge” :-D[private tapping]SUDS at 1/2only because of thefinancial pressure.All feels calm.I picture a salon waiting to be renovated. East London, here I come!SUDS at 0LOL!:-D